JJie's Chronicle

I didn't know just 2 entry apart, and life had been so different.
We lost it, me and her, were no longer together.

Many things have change, me, my life, you and everything in between us.

hey guys, im back!

This time i gotta talk about my sec friends :)
As you may guess, posting in such an early time, Yeap im at work.
haha, right, im not a good employee.

These sec friends were those that are still with me now,
through thick and thin. So, lets talk 1 by 1.

First, Gloria.
My hao jie mei, right we know each other during end of sec 1 i think,
When Mr wee place us at the back of the class.
That's when we became good friends, go through many stuffs.
i still remember both of us had poor eyesight and couldnt see anything at all
Super retarded and we always borrow notes from friends.
I think she one of the reason why my studies were well then.
She is just like a sis to me, can totally read her like a book in the past.
haha but now.. err abit la.
Yea we drifted apart during sec 3 because, you know, yea things happen.
Hmm, but in the end we still end up in the same polytechnic, same course
except different course. And were still good friends although
yea i admit that i kind of neglected her. Sorry sis, as what i told u on your birthday.
Still think she one of the important friend in my life, and will always be on her side.
Remember! Always one of your best jie mei.
There's a lot to say but you know, lets leave those beautiful stuffs unsaid.

Next Jane!
Jane Lee is like my big sister although she gong gong one.
I remember she is one tall girl during sec school same like gloria.
But i grew taller :D
The amazing thing is her name lee xue li is same as my sis!
and her bro jia hao is same as my bro!
I think we are somehow related from our ancestor, super qiao.
So i always feel close to her. Actually i realise we dont talk much,
but we always feel comfortable being around each other.
Jane, stay strong ok? you know u can talk to me anytime :)
She is in the same course with me and gloria as well.
Totally cool, haha, but yes i neglected her too. We will go out more often!

Amanda.
This irritating girl, know her existence through Ruay.
But never talk to her at all until we went tuition together.
Then i know she is damn irritating and playful. haha
But it's because of her that's why our clique is fun.
She always disturb me, non-stop, like she will die if she don't.
It's great to know her though, she fun to be with.
Never got to htht with her before so :/
Stop disturbing me i will throw cats at you!

Marvin!
He is one of my 2 best brother during sec school.
He hold a lot of my secrets, haha yea some that no one knows.
We always spent time playing basketball, and judo together.
He is a great bro to be with. Great to know that you are attached.
Hope you will settle down with her, seems like a nice girl.
shall hang out more ok? Miss htht with you.
we always go out like gays, haha sentosa only both of us.

Kimsiong
He's the other best bro of mine, we been through a lot.
Although we seldom see each other now.
But i always remember the time we spent playing bball,
judo, slacking, disturbing each other and fights. haha
I remember i always support him no matter what he do.
Bro, i don't know how you doing with your life now.
But remember this! you can always come to me when you have problem.

I shall stop here first, got work to do.
2nd part will be Kai jing, Huimin, Samantha and Hong yao

Hi guys, im back.
I was working on a post regarding my secondary school friends, yea, Gloria they all. And also IITSC,
I have not completed it yet, it's really long.
wait awhile more ok? guys, sorry bout that.
Let me write something first ok? Pardon me.

My girl is on her trip, 16 days more to go.  And i'm already lost without her somehow
Woah, she told me she want to have a oversea education trip for 6 months, i would die man.
She at Cambodia now, just wish everything is right and enjoyable for her.
Please let her be safe, i'm quite worried.

I have not post how i met her, haha.
Shall do it right now. Yeap many ppl ask: "Is she from TP?"
Nope~ she from NUS, same age thou.
We met in Oschool, Zaihar dance course. haha
It began at the 2nd last lesson of Zaihar Hiphop course 1.

That day, we were assigned to the group of people we will be dancing with on last lesson.
So i saw her, and i initiated to take everyone number in the group to get her contact. haha
Cause i find her cute in lesson, hahaha.
So i started sms everyone and don't know what happen, we started sms-ing.
(Partly because i always don't end the conversation) & i was really bored at SIP
On the last lesson, our group met up and we dance together.
Her face is damn red, and i think that she's quite cute. 
I even told Qi yang, "Nah! that one. hahahha"
After dance, i persuade her to join Hiphop course 2 & YESH!
i succeeded, if not i will not be able to know her more.
Then we continued smsed, and our first outing was at market 85.
cause she say she want to eat Bar Chor Mee, totally remember that.
I met her at bedok, still got pasa malam

That's the first meet up and i thot it gonna be weird,
but surprisingly we sure can talk cock, haha and she really easy to get along.
Our 2nd meet up was before she went for school, we met for lunch.
At Novena square for popeyes.
Slowly we met up more & more, for dance, for dinner, for lunch, for shopping & for companion.
So cool, i never wanted that to end. 

Guys, how long has it been?
About exactly 10 months since i post.
Woah, such long time man.

During this period, i picked up dance.
& is still totally into it now.
Joined Oschool to learn Hiphop, picked up course 1 & 2.
Have been going to Open classes now.
I love dance, and also someone that i met inside

Glad to say, im attached now, i met her from Oschool.
I totally don't know her at all but i take the first step to know her.
And this is the first time i really woo-ed a girl, she's a tough 1. haha
On 25dec she agreed. We went through a lot, so much that i thought this was a miracle.
We are very in love with each other now.
How i hope this will last forever.
Thanks to jerven and qi yang for pulling me into dance, i couldnt thank you all enough.

this year FO was my last, im in skelto.
went for OTC and saw quite a few old people are in the same empire as me.
Kent, shihua, brandon, tiang and issac.
Glad to have them, OTC is fine, a lot better for me. had my fun.
im just sorry to say most of my time im committing to work.
FO: met my freshies.
you know what im glad to know you all, you all are the best freshies i ever seen.
what power you all have within that make you so hyper,
you know i was so shock and unable to believe.
I love you guys. Thanks for the wonderful memories u all gave me for my last.
To all the year 1s and 2s, im sorry for what happen,
we didnt meant it that way at all, im sorry for what we had said.
The standard best is different for everyone and indeed everyone is good.
Emotion take over us and we suck. I hope you all can do a better job than us next year.
Everyone bring this down.

Lastly TP, thanks for this wonderful journey, i have graduated.Cheers, i dont know when i will post again. 

I remembered a message you gave me on a paper
full of codes that i don't understand. i took it out and solved it today again
after 1 year. that was your 2nd months present.

"Dear, i want to be there for you as long as you need me (:
Seriously, in love with you."

A short message that really made me very happy then,
i dream of you today again, and it's always us back together.
i know in my dream that it was fake, i refused to wake up.
But i know it had to come to an end. It hurt really bad, whenever
i wake up realizing it's fake.

i once said that i would learn to be a better person and
get you back to my side. but no, i don't have that courage.

You're far out there, weren't mine anymore. i gotta learn.

Out There:
There are People who remind me of you.
There are Words that remind me of you.
There are Places that remind me of you.
There are Buses that remind me of you.
There are Seats that remind me of you.
There are Numbers that remind me of you.
There are Drinks that remind me of you.
There are Foods that remind me of you.
There are Books that remind me of you.
There are Stations that remind me of you.
There are Laptops that remind me of you.
There are Pictures that remind me of you.
There are Girls who remind me of you.
There are Songs that remind me of you.
There are Movies that remind me of you.
There are Messages that remind me of you.
There are Websites that remind me of you.
There are Camps that remind me of you.
There are Clothes that remind me of you.
There are Knowledge that remind me of you
There are Friends that remind me of you.
There are Posts that remind me of you.
There are Emotion that remind me of you.
There are Country that remind me of you.
There are Actions that remind me of you.
There are Tickets that remind me of you.
There are Smells that remind me of you.
There are Heights that remind me of you.
There are Weights that remind me of you.
There are Church that remind me of you.
There are Siblings that remind me of yours.
There are Bicycle that remind me of you.
There are Trees that remind me of you.
There are Sky that remind me of you
There are Kindness that remind me of you.
There are Expressions that remind me of you.
There are Restaurants that remind me of you.
There are Mistakes that remind me of you.
There are Promises that remind me of you.
There are Time that remind me of you.
There is ME that constantly thinking of you.
Even GOD remind me of you.
And Finally,

There's you, who constantly remind me of you.
Remind me all the mistakes that i had done that
causes me to lose you.

There's no way that i could forget you.
You successfully stepped in to my life,
way too deep, that i couldn't get you out now.
I couldn't  ever lost anything that could cause
the same pain to me when you left me.

I realized how childish i were back then.
Don't even know why i reacted that way.
Too bad, you were long gone.

I was never happy after 15 August 2009.

Stay Happy Always, that's the only thing i always pray for you.

i'm here again. There presentation tomorrow, so i'm not intending to sleep

things went through my mind. Many, maybe too much.
i wasn't sure about it, but what are we?
i have no idea, but i know there isn't much hope.
lets forget about this, i think it just awkward isn't it.
it's like we got nothing to say when we see each other.
what could be worst, i think we are too much of a different
Maybe it's me, i could take a step or effort to talk to you.
i dunno what the fuck is wrong, but it isn't right.
i think i'm wasting your time, like what others say.

is it me that isn't ready or you?
we both have someone more important inside, you know that.
that's what misled us i guess.
i guess i need to tell you this soon.
there should be someone better outside waiting for you.
for me, i think i just have to settle what i am right now.

i'm just waiting for someone who is willing to share with me
my joy, sadness and troubles.
Someone who could put down her little part of her freedom
and commit a little to me, i'm not asking for more.
i'm sick of trying relationship
i just hope God could tell me who is the right one for me.
then i would give it all out to her.

i talked to friends who totally gave up on relationship
just fool around everyday.
i don't want to be like them,
that why i'm trying my best
but i'm already somewhat half-way there.

thank you for everything.
you know who.

im back, after leaving for 4 months.
i was really busy, many things happened within these months.
i changed, i think for the worst.
ya, maybe i look a little more cheerful.
but im playing.
im not that stupid honest person anymore.
i dont want this to continue.
i hope i can get u back to me.

To another person:
Im sorry for what i answered,
you know, it's impossible.
if we had, i would have long grabbed your hand that night
You are still a great girl,
dont hope for me.
i will only hurt you more

I really miss you a lot,
i don't know what impact you made in me.
but i'm thinking a lot about you.
Girl

That name of his just give me the insecure feel.
i don't know what to do, but just hope that
he won't be back to snatch you off.
but i know i'm the one rushing in,
so there's nothing i can do

cause i don't want to lose anyone anymore.

hi people..

There's still things that i couldn't forget.

This happen in one of those busy camp day, 15th of April 2009,
when a boy was in-charge of monitoring and help out of a camp.
There were performances going-on on the stage,
and the boy was staring into blank.
Then, a girl came and approached him,
Girl: "Hi, do you know where is the toilet?"
Boy: "Ya, ermm, i'll bring you there,it will be easier"

That was all how it started..
On those normal school days, that boy met the girl again
The boy approached her to get her number by bluffing her that there were some
event going on, and he need her number.
And they started messaging.
One day, that girl called the boy
and said: "B, b.."
That boy was shock, and answered: "Sorry, i'm not. i think you called wrongly"
and hanged up after awhile.
However, the girl called back and said the same thing,
then the boy realise she was drunk
and he got worried, wanted to go down to find her.
The girl refuse to say where she is, and said she's fine.
In order to keep her safe, the boy continued to talk to her on the phone until she's better.

That night changed everything, they started talking
and one day, they decide to meet up, and it became a normal routine.
They started to meet everyday, and acted like boy-girl friend.
On 8th of May 2009, something special happened that the boy decide that this girl will be the right girl for him. but he know that they needed more time to know each other better. So he told the girl: "You will be mine, i confirmed, but let us know each other better first. and also give me some time to settle my school stuffs that i'm busy with, in order to have more time for you."

On the 7th of June 2009, the boy asked the girl to accompany him
to the bookshop and bluffed her that he need to buy stuffs for his brother
On the night itself, the boy rushed the big card that he want to give the girl
On the 8th if June 2009, the girl received the card, with many quiz that came to a answer of
"Would you be mine?". That little girl teared, and nodded, that boy was so happy and heart pain at the same time, when he saw her teared. That was how it began.

Days by days goes on, they went through many stuffs.
Meeting up everyday and do spent every moment together.
there came the first month of their anniversary.
The boy fold a bunch of flower for the girl, however, it was spoiled and he was so upset.
Then the girl bring out a red book, and said: "I found this on the MRT yesterday, it seems like the type of book you have been finding"
The boy said: "Really?", without much hesitation, he opened that book.
and what he saw was the picture of them and the word: "Happy 1st month anniversary"
That boy then realised he got prank, but he was happy
that girl told him that we can continued to slot in more picture we have for the coming months

There were promises that they made, there were 4 promises.
They always remind each other about it.
They always play with their phone numbers and IC,
and asked if the other one remembered what is their matrix number or phone number.

Then days by days goes on, on the second month of their anniversary.
The girl did a card for that boy, it a code that require hand phone to type out.
It was a short sentence but it hold a lot of meaning to that boy.
After that, have you realise that the boy didnt really do much for the girl?
other than bring her out and meeting her everyday.

Then things started to change, that boy don't treat her as well.
Although he did not scold her, but both noticed that things changed.
On the 26th of August, they had a quarrel. Both of them did went out previously and the girl did tried to cheer the boy out as things changes and the boy get very upset. but apart from being upset, that boy didn't do anything else. he was so dumb, that girl was trying her best.
On the 27th of August, the boy wrote something on their shared blog draft, he wrote something that is so mean. After a few hours, the boy called the girl that he will cheer up and change, and hope they can be happy again. without thinking that the girl will saw what he write, he didn't delete what he wrote inside. On 28th of August, that boy receive a call from the girl. Apparently, the girl saw what he wrote, and after that, they broke up, that girl was determined and explained why. that boy was shocked, and know what he did wrong.
The girl apologies for not being able to tell me earlier until everything changed as one of the promises, but when the boy asked for another chance, he was rejected. and then, that end the story of their life being together. they did went out after that, but what happened after upset the boy even more. that boy just hide and try to run away from what he don't want to see.

That boy was me, i was dumb, i didn't treasure her.
i regretted seriously, i want to let her know that i still love her.
Even though it has been 5 and a half month after the break, that feeling didn't decreased a little at all.
but it was all too late, sometime i prayed to God if i was allow another chance.
however i know it will only be allowed if the girl is willing too.
i know that it was not possible.
However, even so, i still love her and waiting for miracle to happen.
If you happen to read this, girl.
i hope we can still be friend.
Maybe one day after i pick up my courage, i will talk to you again.

And girl, i know something happened to you.
i hope you are fine, and be cheerful.
you never failed to do that right?
Be a cheerful girl and don't tear anymore.
Although it is hurtful to know, but your happiness is what i prayed for.
and God will never fail to do so, He will give you someone that see you more than i do, someone better than me, a guy who care and love you more than anything.
i always prayed for that and i hope you will find him soon.

i know about my mistake and i'm sorry to treat you that way.
I promise i will be a better man and i will hold my word.